I have been on a very important trek this last year. Being a very personal issue for me, I choose not to blog about it or make it public knowledge....until now. After years of "battling the bulge," I made a radical decision to have Weightloss Surgery in January. January 26th to be exact. The surgery is an extreme measure, and a necessary one for creating a more fulfilling life for myself.
Blogging the decision process, the pre-surgery habit changes and after surgery struggles just was not a desire that I had. I will tell you that I did have support at all points and am thankful for a great group of family, friends, coaches and healthcare professionals!
Why blog now? Well, I feel like I should document the new experiences that I get to have as well as the positive feelings I have about myself. That is all.
So, I am almost 5 months past my surgery. I have lost 77 pounds and still going. I have 26 more pounds to lose to get to my goal weight. I feel absolutely wonderful. The only side effect of the surgery is that once in awhile, I have a tired day....surgery or ageing? I guess we could debate that, however, after a day that includes a nap (hopefully), I wake up the next morning with a 3-4 pound loss.
I will blog about my struggle with weight, body image and self esteem as I feel prompted. Today, I will just tell you that I am starting to enjoy the small things in life that being so overweight has hindered me from doing. Being active with my children is one of those things. It also was a motivating reason for me to pursue the surgery.
Getting on that bike was not really scary; I was more excited, although I wasn't sure if I'd crash in the driveway. I didn't. Just took off. I really can't remember having as much fun and experiencing as much freedom as I did. While taking in the sun on my face, the wind in my hair and the muscles working in my legs, I was most impressed with the words of my daughter, "Mommy, this is the best day. I love riding my bike with my Mom. I can't wait to tell Dad what we did. You're the best!" Truly brings joy to my heart to see the simple things that really make children feel loved. I felt loved, too. From her, myself and Daddy God who I could see smiling and cheering me on.
Glad I did it - the surgery and the bike ride! I look forward to sharing the experiences that unfold creating a more fulfilling life. I'm not looking back, except to make sure the way is clear to turn the corner.
